曾经，一位老师问我们：is any of you ever feel yourself experiencing depression?
班上多数的人举手了，我也举手了。
老师问：how do you define yourself being depressed?
同学回答：sad, unhappy, angry...
老师说：depress is a very strong word, that most of the time you can't control your emotion. Among all the description you have given, you are sad, feeling life being uneasy, angry about uncertainty, fear for the unseen future. You are not consider as depressed. When you lost your hope, when you stop believing, when everything turn to its dark side, when you can't move forward, when you hold on something that you can't let go easily, when a nightmare haunted every single night of yours, you may called yourself a depressed patient.

Robin Williams 的离开，被传说是忧郁自杀。不管事情是否真实，老师却从没告诉我们患有忧郁症的病人不全是脸上刻着不安的表情，迷茫的眼神，怪异的行为。敬业的演员，也许是这世上最可怕的人，第二可怕的或许是如我们这些读着心理学的人。一个选择把欢乐梦想带给观众，自己承受掌声下的压抑。我们其实真的不会知道脸上的笑容也许是两行眼泪换来的。另一个选择表达自己的专业帮助别人，自己却自以为是的去抗压思绪这座活火山。

思想，是个很可怕的万能者。